i'm a blue

i always heard about this thing. but i never knew. now i know. finally, my life makes sense.

REDS are motivated by POWER. They seek productivity and need to look good to others. Simply stated, REDS want their own way. They like to be in the driver's seat and willingly pay the price to be in a leadership role. REDS value whatever gets them ahead in life, whether it be in their careers, school endeavors, or personal life. What REDS value, they get done. They are often workaholics. They will, however, resist doing anything that doesn't interest them.

REDS like to be right. They value approval from others for their intelligence and practical approach to life, and want to be respected for it. REDS are confident, proactive, and visionary; but can also be arrogant, selfish, and insensitive. When others interact with you, as a RED you respond to them best if they are precise, factual, direct, AND show no fear!


BLUES are motivated by INTIMACY. They seek to genuinely connect with others, and need to be understood and appreciated. Everything they do is quality-based. They are loyal friends, employers, and employees. Whatever or whomever they commit to is their sole (and soul) focus. They love to serve and give themselves freely in order to nurture others' lives.

BLUES have distinct preferences and have the most controlling personality. Their personal code of ethics is remarkably strong and they expect others to live honest, committed lives as well. They enjoy meaningful moments in conversation as well as paying close attention to special life events (e.g. birthdays and anniversaries). BLUES are dependable, thoughtful, and analytical; but can also be self-righteous, worry-prone, and moody. They are "sainted pit-bulls" who never let go of something or someone, once they are committed. When you deal with a BLUE, be sincere and make a genuine effort to understand and appreciate them.


WHITES are motivated by PEACE. They seek independence and require kindness. They resist confrontation at all costs. To them, feeling good is more important than being good. They are typically quiet by nature, process things very deeply and objectively with great clarity. Of all the colors, WHITES are the best listeners. They respect people who are direct but recoil from perceived hostility or verbal battle.

WHITES need their "alone time" and refuse to be controlled by others. WHITES want to do things their own way and in their own time. They ask little of others and resent others demanding much of them. WHITES are much stronger than people think, but are not often seen for their strength because they don't easily reveal their feelings. WHITES are even-tempered, diplomatic, and the voice of reason; but can also be indecisive, unexpressive, and silently stubborn. When others interact with you, as a WHITE you respond to them best if they are kind, accepting and supporting of your individuality, and if they look for non-verbal clues to understand your feelings.


YELLOWS are motivated by FUN. They are inviting and embrace life as a party that they're hosting. They love playful interaction and can be extremely sociable. They are highly persuasive and seek instant gratification. YELLOWS need to be adored and praised. While YELLOWS are carefree, they are sensitive and highly alert to others' agendas to control them. YELLOWS typically carry within themselves the gift of a good heart.

YELLOWS need to look good socially, and friendships command a high priority in their lives. YELLOWS are happy, articulate, engaging of others and crave adventure. Easily distracted, they can never sit still for long. They embrace each day in the "present tense" and choose people who, like themselves, enjoy a curious nature. YELLOWS are charismatic, spontaneous, and positive; but can also be irresponsible, obnoxious, and forgetful. When others interact with you, as a YELLOW you respond to them best if they take a positive, upbeat approach and promote light-hearted, creative, and fun interactions with you.

breaks are so hot right now

maybe it's that one Friends episode, or maybe it's Provo, but I don't get why everyone around me thinks 'taking a break' is such a cool idea lately. I don't understand what 'taking a break' in a relationship is all about at all. I mean, if you know it's right, it doesn't matter how much other junk is involved, it's right and you just do it or don't do it. The presence of junk says nothing about the validity of that right feeling. junk is inevitable, i'm pretty sure. and I get the appeal of some in between, less permanent option where you get to test out how much you miss someone with the insurance policy of a get-back-together in your back pocket. I mean, it's the idyllic have your cake and eat it too scenario. but it just seems like such a messy messy cake. Sometimes it's real hard to be clean, I mean, even I get frosting and batter all over myself sometimes. But I'm just saying, I like clean cakes.

Tons of Conundrums**

Conundrum #1: What do you do if there’s rarely anything you want to go to? I mean, as far as planned activities? I go to the things I want to go to but I already know all those people. Sometimes, I’ll talk myself into going somewhere new, for the sake of going, and meeting people. But the thing is, the people I want to meet, wouldn’t go either. We’re all just sitting in our respective houses waiting to meet eachother. Lame.

Conundrum #2: I’m not trying to say that I’m the nicest person in the world, because, duh. I’m not. But, I just hate when you have to think about being nice. Like, contemplate the consequence of your niceness. That’s no fun.

Conundrum #3: I want a bob. I want long hair. I want to be blonde. I want dark hair.

Conundrum #4: I can’t find the right packaging for my valentines.

Conundrum #5: I refuse to get up on time.

"It woulda been awfully hard to explain to Chief what happened to my brand new patrol car."

The BYU police officer seriously opened with that line. After pulling me over for an 'unsafe lane change'. (I unsafely changed into His lane) They take themselves so seriously. And now I get to give them $50.

lose all your vowels!

does anyone, anyone, anyone know where i can buy this game? I've put in a few emails to the only lead i have (PA homeschoolers) but haven't heard back. anyone?

just don't.

unless you're going to actually do something and be really nice to me and not hurt me. then maybe do. maybe.

can cookie dough consumption cause vertigo?

because it's all i eat. and my head won't stop spinning. i'm serious. on the same note, when will they get better packaging? these things are impossible to open cleanly.

celebrities are having a hard time impressing me lately.

(so i saw some guy at Sundance and LIVE was playing guitar hero in our studio. big deal.)

I want to adopt twenty babies. right now. i would love them so good.

(i just watched 20/20)

a good thing to do if it's 2:33am and you start thinking of crazy, regret-evoking things you could do:

go to sleep

best love song ever? go.

please please. i'm serious. i need to know.

my weekend

Well, this, plus a lot of cookie dough, high heels and face masks.

if i told you you had a nice body, would you hold it against me?

i just got that.

I just can't stop thinking about it. **

i already bought my ticket.

march 19th
urban lounge
salt lake city, ut

Caring, sharing. Every little thing that we are wearing.

If footwear is any indication of how a weekend is going to turn out, I'd say this one's gonna blow my mind. I mean, Becca just sent me an email with a slideshow of her favorite heels asking which pairs I want her to bring! And don't think this is the first conversation we've had about our shoes for the weekend. Let alone Sunday outfits and Birthday Dinner outfits. There is a 3rd draft of an itinerary sitting on my desktop for crying out loud and at least 6 post-it notes in my room about this weekend. I just bought whoppers and stocked my house with cookie dough ingredients. I'm just saying, it's going to be so so great. Just look at these shoes!

I'm a hazard to myself. Don't let me get me.

90 mile (round-trip) commute = lots of unnecessary texting
Please, if you get a text from me between the hours of 8-9:30am and 5-6:30pm, just ignore it.
In fact, you can prolly ignore all the textseses you ever get from me.
Thanks.

I think I'm nesting.

I just can't stop baking. My latest creation:





























and if i'm not baking, i'm making one of these babies:

Jury's still out

on...
My brightest diamond. (no offense, Hero)
The way the heater blows directly on the toilet paper in my new office’s bathroom.
Parking guy’s haircut. The far-too-long locks were part of the appeal.
Pointy toe shoes.
Me asking a boy out to dinner.
Blogger beta.
Skinny jeans.
Facebook.
Waiting in line for Sundance tickets.
Tanning. (at a salon)
Halo.
Any soda besides Dr. Pepper.
Rated R movies.
Me, becoming a brunette.
My ability to wear boots.
Puffy.
8.5” x 11” wedding announcements.
Being friends with people you used to be more than friends with.
Single children.
Designer jeans.
Dogs.
Winter.

*just because no verdict has been reached does not mean i haven't participated in these things.

I won! I won! I won!

Why do I feel so lucky for 'winning' an auction on ebay?

i will.

I will be good.
I will be more punctual.
I will remember what matters.
I will graduate from college.
I will yogalates again.
I will be stronger, braver and more true.
I will speak up.
I will stay quiet.
I will be earlier to bed and earlier to rise.
I will flirt with Luis.
I will put a dent in my 'pending projects' pile.
I will keep in touch.
I will floss my teeth.
I will read good books.
I will.

I am resolute.

this decade's officially on its last leg.

i like this year already. good riddance, 2006. stuff's gonna happen in 2007. stuff i'll never forget.