bless her heart

The 2nd part of this week's This American Life, just completely tore me to pieces. I'd rather you listen to it, then have me explain. But, I'll just say that Sarah had a heart transplant. And her heart came from Lucas, a boy her age (young), that was murdered. Sarah describes waking up from the surgery and 'drowning' in air, she'd never breathed so much air. She goes on to face Lucas's murderers face to face, and her/his heart races. It's essentially a more tragic, real life, Return To Me. And sarah feels all this pressure to live a life good enough to count as two. And Lucas's family couldn't think of a person more perfect and his mom loves listening to Sarah's heart beat. So maybe I almost told you everything. But really, you have to hear their voices. It breaks my heart and makes it beat fast and makes me want to give it to someone else, all at the same time. Dramatic, I know. But all this heart talk made me wonder how it really would feel to have someone else's heart. I mean, it seems like it'd be the same, but these stories make me think it'd feel different. And people talk about people's hearts as their essence and I really like that but is there something physically in my heart that makes me how I am? I guess if a heart can hurt and just feel in general then that means yes? I don't know. I mostly just wish the writers would stop striking so that I could just watch Grey's Anatomy and not have to think up my own weird medical-spiritual situations.